afraid

It is hard to decide that this matters--that reviewing something as personal as my life should be of interest to anyone, including me.
It's still there--i am in the middle of it and it's familiar but it is separate.

I'm afraid of being narcissistic.
I'm afraid of making it seem like I care.
It is much easier to care about others and help them figure out their way.

Vicarious living and personal avoidance.